This is a blog about our journey of adoption from the beginning; typed by me, written by God.
Wednesday, August 15, 2012
precious baby girl, Alyssa Michelle, gets to go home, to Jesus. As we were on the way to
PA this morning, passing through Abilene, TX, we got a call from the
agency worker who spoke with the doctors this morning.
Our baby isn't
able to breathe well anymore, she has lost the ability to swallow, and has some other problems that just came up overnight. We
had to make a hard decision this morning for her... Prolong her life
artificially with surgery and an iv, etc (which would be more painful for her - and she still probably won't make it through) or make her as comfortable as
possible and let her go home to her Father. We decided to keep her as
comfortable as possible. Since we haven't signed the papers, nothing is legal. She is still "Baby Girl" at the hospital and is in custody of the state, but we believe she is ours (emotionally at least).
We decided to turn around and go home
because it's likely that she won't make it until we get there. If she
did, her body would be mostly shut down that we would mostly be up there
to say goodbye to her. We feel God is telling us that we need to go home and process through this. We will have the next 3 days together before the hubby goes back to work.
We are almost back home... tired (as we drove
nearly through the night except for 2 hours of sleep on the side of the
road), sad and yet rejoicing that she will be happy and healthy with
We didn't get to meet you here, but we will meet you someday in heaven our dear baby girl! We love you!!
Please keep us in your prayers as we look to God and move through this. We believe everything happens in His will and timing. Caleb believes that He has a better plan for us and our future child(ren). Even though we can't see it now, we know He will get us through and lead us to our perfect child someday.